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hello [Oct. 8th, 2014|10:14 pm]
it's been probably a long time since i posted.

so much has happened, both physically, mentally, spiritually, and in every other way.

for a start, i don't hate myself as much as i used to.
i've learned to live with myself a bit more, and recognise my good points.

in the past year i have:

- quit my shit job in retail

- started my own freelance business with the help of a government program

- made a little bit of money (lol)

- broken up with a boyfriend, only to be hurt by someone else

- made a few friends... even though i'm still not terribly open, i manage.

- taken a lot of photos. and made videos

- gained a bit of weight

- died my hair purple (this is a recent addition)

- tried not to give a shit what people think as much

- discovered amazing new music

and now, i want to plan my escape. i want to save my money,
and fuck off out of australia. i feel like i've been waiting my whole life to fuck off out of here. and maybe now i realistically can, because i know kind of
where i am going with my 'career'.

i'm eating yoghurt with sprinkles. it's really yum.
i have back problems. and i should be more healthy. and not smoke.
but fuck it.

i want to live in the english countryside in a big fuck off house and read books and drink tea and laze around and tend to my garden like beatrix potter and maybe
have a few rabbits. i just want somewhere to be alone and make all of my things
somewhere with not too many spiders.

i want, i want, i want - all of these things.
but only time will tell whether i will attain all or any of them.
but all i can say is i am trying.

and that is as good as i can do. (so fuck you).

sorry but this post wouldn't be emma enough unless i said that once.

maybe i will write again here, soon.
because writing helps to clear my head. and i really miss writing in a journal
and i should do it every day. for my sanity.

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Writer's Block: Desert island [Sep. 23rd, 2011|12:09 pm]

List three books that have changed your life:

hmm... changed my life... i don't know about changed my life per se, but these have definitely inspired/moved me

ham on rye - bukowski
norwegian wood - murakami
jimmy corrigan, the smartest kid on earth - chris ware

1. because i related to all the bullying and shit parents, self turmoil, loneliness, dread and desperation of everyday life, but i loved how bukowski made humour out of it all, even happiness. fucking love him.

2. escaped into another world completely, as i do with all of his books, but this one is just so perfect. it's timeless. his words are like consuming honey and falling asleep afterwards instantly. did that make sense?

3. a graphic novel, but deserves to be here. deals with time, space, loneliness, distance, longing, i mean it's just so stark and beautiful. i don't think i ever felt as much empathy for a character as i did for jimmy corrigan... and some parts made me cry. a lot.
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(no subject) [Sep. 15th, 2011|11:24 pm]
pepsi max is really good

anyways i found my first BAND MEMBER. it's my friend of like 5 years, stephanie, and i'm gonna start on bass with my friends bass who never asked for it back, and it's pretty good. i played cello for quite a few years so bass should kinda transfer from that. god knows i'm not a natural guitar player, although that was my dream... due to frusciante and shit.

here are some songs we want to try and learn

- bluebell by babes in toyland
- lowdown, wire

i personally want to learn some jesus and mary chain, and do a changed up cover of persephone by the cocteau twins, it's going to have to be way different because elisabeth fraser's voice is like... whoa

i can play a melvins bass line. night goat. it's really really very simple hahah

what are some good easy bass lines. i kinda don't wanna learn chilis stuff, cuz that's what everyone does when they start playing bass. but hey

we're just gonna play music for fun but in secret we have aspiring dreams
(((((of learning how to play our instruments semi well)))))

so then i can ditch art college
and stuff

we can always dream right
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(no subject) [Sep. 13th, 2011|10:39 pm]
[Current Music |best coast]

so this is my studio



i'm in the process of selecting images for an installation, and i guess the hard part is making it look the way it feels in your head. i'll get there... one day
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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2011|10:51 pm]
[Current Music |i'd love to - morrissey]

this is actually the most beautiful song in the universe. did you know that?




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my semester 1, second year assessment [Jun. 22nd, 2011|11:18 pm]






i'm really, really happy with the way it turned out. i accidentally put the last two photos in the wrong order (they are meant to be swapped around), but i was so concerned with hanging them correctly that i completely forgot about it until afterwards.

the book looked really professional on the plinth (that white block) and i'm glad i decided to do that instead of having it on a table with chairs.

here are the individual photographs + some from the bookCollapse )
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i cried the other night, i can't even say why. [May. 6th, 2011|09:16 am]







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